I'm not usually one to talk about how I feel, rarely ever will you hear me share my feelings with anybody. Even my husband. Unless of course I am nagging/complaining....you get the picture.
Lately I have felt, blah. I am completely committed to doing photography and I really love it. I enjoy having something that I have complete control of but sometimes I just sit down on the ground and throw up my hands. I have been looking at other people's photographs and think, 'wow those are ah-mazing!' how can I ever compete with people like THAT! I have done a few sessions that I feel are incomplete. I also had a few (meaning, 5) discs NOT work when the person receving the pictures tried to load them. I just get this sick feeling like I want to hide and not show my face but I know that is all part of the learning process. I know that everybody has trials and you just have to find what works best for you, I get it. I am also impatient. I want it to happen NOW. Clearly it's just not gonna. I have the worst business mind in the world. I want everybody to be satisfied with the work I do for them, I want them to TELL me if they're not. Ugh, it's so frustrating. (this is getting to be a me,me,me post) Anyhow I want to know how to do websites, and banners and logos and everything fancy but I can't. I can research it, but I don't. I feel that everything I do is half complete. I want to learn to complete EVERYTHING I do, in a timely fashion also. I'm not sure what the hang up is, I have control over my actions and I should quit complaining about it and do it. There. I'm done complaining about it and I will now do it.
just as soon as that girl emails me back.......! ps. there are some friends of mine that don't CARE what people think of their work and I wish I could be like that. I wish them the best and all the success in the world.